Back In San Jose...What Now?

Pretty much...I'm back in San Jose. It's crazy. There's so many different thoughts and emotions going on right now I don't even know where to start. It's a crazy mix of excitement/exhaustion/being overwhelmed by everything.

I can't believe that DTS is over...It feels like just yesterday that I was packing to head out to Kona. It feels like just yesterday that I was completely clueless about what would happen in the biggest 6 months of my life. I had no idea what God would do. I had no idea that God would completely tear down the life and mindset that I had and completely replace it with something that actually gives him glory. I had no idea how dead my relationship with God had become and how much I really needed him to reveal himself. I had no idea that my picture of Jesus needed a total reshaping.

I had no idea that I would come to truly know who Jesus was.

Looking back on the last 6 months really makes me realize how much I have changed. Even in the past day of being home I have seen such a culture shift in my life. It was so freaking good. It was so ridiculously painful at times, but at the same time it was something that I am so thankful happened. God is so faithful it's ridiculous. It's so amazing how He knew that this past season of my life was the perfect time to have me do something like this. I can't believe I resisted as much as I did.

So what next?

I honestly don't know. I feel like God's opening up several doors for amazing opportunities. I have no idea which one it's going to be. Waiting to hear back on some things before I start thinking about it. What I do know is that I am going to soak in every second of being back home with my friends and family. God's definitely got big things in store for the bay area. I can't wait to see what that shapes up to be!

Even though I don't have much planned out, there is one thing that I know for sure. It's something that our school leader said when he came to visit us and it has stuck with me ever since. When you don't know what to do, default to service. So that's what I'm going to do. I may not have all of my plans (or any of them) mapped out for the next season of my life, but one thing I know for certain is that I want to look like Jesus. So that's what I'm gonna do.

Default to service, because service points to Jesus.

So stoked to see what's to come...